i really struggle to understand
im back from holiday. fine, I was fine out there it was normal and fun and good.
now im home. don’t have any motivation to move from my bed, fuck this day. whats even the point of it. I feel awful and shit and like nothing matters. whats the point.
I just want to lie here and do nothing.
wish I felt nothing. least then I could deal with that.
its funny how the smallest of things can change your mood and perception of things around you, say one thing wrong, make one physically wrong move - and its all different. your inner peace changes
how dare I give someone this affect on me. again.
someone turn my mind off
I hate that I cry when im angry.
fuck this feeling
fuck all these feelings because of you
man the fuck up
and fuck off
because your not that special anyway
mad as ever
so much has changed.
feel on a completely different track … every day
yet someones still driving me insane